Who had a big influence on you and how did that affect the direction of your life and career?

tagged by the prolific programmer, i am called upon to write my story of who had a big influence on me. Many of you have had an influence on me. You've been in my life and you've left your print, your mark. Most of you are still in my life and continue to be a source of trust, care, support, and more importantly, a source of love. Yes, i am the love taker, or sucker, i would like to say - in a vacuum cleaner sense though, don't you go thinking else where!

I still feel that i'm still in the early stages of life. i can't look back and say who's influenced me to take different career paths because, heck... i don't even have a career yet! But, i do have a direction, and a goal.

i feel i'm doing a terrible job at telling my story of how a person influenced me and changed my life, but i will think about it.. and make an edition to this post sometime.

i'll tag hei, karen, chris and helen. So, tell me who has a big influenced on you and changed your direction of life?

stupid.

So stupid.

after getting another opinion, and another voice...
i'm so glad to hear that I would've done the right thing.

What of mediators?
What of this stupid 'political' mess?
Yes, all this is immaturity, and it put my maturity to a test.
I guess sometimes, i do not stand as strongly as i think
and this case illustrated just that.

a problem between two
should be solved between two.
what of mediators,
what of moderators?
why should there need be one?

being trut to myself and being true to the other
is to show myself directly
express myself explicitly
without the transmission of another
one that may mistransmit
misinterpret
and whatever.

yes, so i did think i would have 'wanted' or 'liked' a mediator.
smirk, a moderator, now i think about it.. what a terrible name.
this is not a debate or a forum of discussion that needs to be 'moderated'
it is an issue between two that only the two need to be aware of.

so, i guess i take this as a litle lesson, remidning me how childish i am sometimes.
reminding me to stand strong and believe in what i believe in, and to go with my own feelings, rather than be pesuaded by others.

clique.
you can be of your own.

hunting them down

Recently, I've been encouraged to really hunt them down. I hope it will work. I actually think that showing up in person will confirm that you'll get what you want i.e. to set up an appointment to meet with them. But, on the other hand, you may (big may) be perceived as slightly irritating, annoying or over persistent. I really do not want to be perceived in any of these ways. Do tell me, how do i ensure that i get what i want, present myself as initiative but hold back on the 'too persistent' and keep myself on this end of the line?

jittery

i don't need caffeine to make me jittery,
all i need is a jolt of a 'future prospect' and that will get my adrenaline and cortisol levels sky-rocketing.

much has happened over the short span of 8 months. - short, depending on whatever perspective you happen to look at the length of 8 months of course.- There have been numerous career options and one heck of a tough time trying to convince myself of a particular one that i would like to pursue. in all honesty, the fact is that over such and such a period of time, i have not managed to convince myself of anything particular. And, when i am persuaded that such and such career may be 'better' off, or that such and such career seems to have more 'security', i am swayed from "the" career that i "convinced" myself to stick with.

ah choices.
ah decisions, decisions.
it seems to be such an impossible task
for such an indecisive decision maker...
stemming from plausible roots that i won't go into depths about
but most conceivable by readers who may understand why decision makers are so undecisive.