People

Are such a curious thing.

and i mean, very curious, curious thing. 

Both that we are curious, but we are curious. 

people contracdict themselves, people disappoint themselves, and people upset themselves.

And, what for?

Perhaps the question is more of a 'why' rather than 'what for'. Perhaps it's because people expect things of themselves. And, people also realize. And perhaps there happens to be a discrepancy between the two and hence all those things that people do to themselves. So, why do people expect in the first place then? 

my train of thought has decided to end right about here.

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what am I going to do with myself from how until September? It's a little ridiculous to just sit here and not do something very productive. On the other hand, I do want to just sit here and do nothing, and pass the time. I do know that if I do, it will likely be the last chance that I have to do so. But, it is greatly displeasing to have someone hag at you to go get a job, and not laze at home all day, waking up at grotesquely afternoon hours and sleeping at the ghastly dawn hours of the morning. 

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i want to go someplace warm and sunny. Preferably where there is soft, soft sand. It's alright if there's no sand at all, but if there is - it needs to be soft. If it's not soft, then I'd rather have no sand. ANd, i'm lying there soaking up the sun. On a blanket atop the soft sands, or on a beach bench atop nothing. Suspended in mid-air. 

Ah, Lovely.